The Time Has Come Again..

Here we go again, another deployment, another 7 months on my own. I never thought when I was a young girl growing up, that I would be married to a man in uniform and living alone almost half our marriage.

 I am thankful for a man who is committed to serve this country and all the sacrifices he makes for us. He always provides for us. We never go hungry or have any lack. He seeks God's face first. I am truly blessed to have a husband that never complains when I ask him to do anything. We both know our time is short between deployments, we make the best out of it. 

I hear so many woman complaining about their husbands NON STOP! Like really? You should be happy he is home 24/7. You should be happy he works to provide for you. You should be happy your only time spent apart is when he is at work. Lets see your husband leave for 7-18 months and see if you will still be complaining. I bet they will learn to appreciate their husbands more. I never take any moment I have with him for granted. Our time is precious. We embrace every moment we have with each other. My husband is my best friend and true love. 

The weeks are coming to fast.. I will never know the day he is leaving, until that day comes. We find out in very short notice. You think he will be here this weekend, but nope, you wake up that morning and find out he leaves tomorrow. The uncertainty of the military kills my OCD! I have learned to enjoy EVERY second I have. Last deployment  (our first) I dwelled on him leaved EVERY moment I could, I was an emotional wreck. This deployment I have my moments, but they are far and few between. I need to be strong for my husband. He needs to know that his wife will be okay when he is gone. We have to be strong rocks for our husbands. We can't worry them about the little things in life. He needs to know I am safe and healthy. That is all. 

Since I am ranting.. It bothers me when people complain about their husbands going on a business trip for a week, and they try to relate to me how hard a week is! Umm.. no, try MONTHS at a time and let me know if a week feels the same, until then...SHUT IT! lol. I know I sound harsh, but it seems only military spouses understand each other. Imagine sleeping alone for months on end, sleepless nights, wondering if they are okay and just having that void in your life. It is not fun. I survive. I trust in the Lord with all I can. I know He is the keeper. He is our everything. Without God we couldn't do this. I am thankful to have a Savior that takes time to love on each and every one of us. I know no one probably reads this blog, but it doesn't matter. I just need an outlet for all the craziness that is about to take over my life.

 Hopefully at the end of these 7 months I will be a new me. I want to reflect Christ in all my actions. I want to fear God first and foremost. I want my first reaction to be the way God wants me to act! God is a good God. We owe it to Him to build a relationship with Him.